Thoughts.

I have to believe something, so I’m told. I find it interesting that humanity finds the need to escape reality. Be it by drugs, alcohol, mysticism, religion or any other kind of fanaticism. What is it within humans that makes them not trust what we see, why does there need to be a Inner world of psychology or mysticism? I read of mysticism and paranormal phenomenon, about how certain people have experienced these events in their own lives. They are described and believed by others who have the same beliefs or outlook to the inner world. I myself am open to mystical experiences and paranormal activity, I have experienced mysticism on different levels in my life. But with mysticism I know that it remains subjective to the adherent and their beliefs in the subject of mystical experience. With paranormal phenomenon there seems to be a hint of the objective, where others experience the same thing. But this also could just be the essence of communal ritual and magick aesthetics taking place. For going into a place you are told is hunted and with the objective to see and experience ghosts, there can only be one outcome. It will most likely happen that a person or persons will feel creeped out because of the environment and objective of the point being there. Human psychology is taking place, but non the less there is the point of objective experience. I myself have been spooked in a dark room when thinking out ghosts and goblins, but have never seen or felt any paranormal phenomenon. Even if I did I would know it is still all in my own subjective mind and conscious. I guess its so opposite of everyday experience, its not reality but somehow induced like a dream, hallucination or illusion. I guess as humans we are ungrateful, so most of us need religion and mysticism to fill that void as they say. But really its just how things are taught, western philosophy and society is based on Christianity and some sort of higher spiritual view. Only now are people sick of it, and trying to live today as today, and realizing there is no light at the end of the tunnel, no heaven or hell where God chooses who goes to and so on. Its nature, we live eat sleep fuck then die and rot in the ground. No celestial walk in the park of heavens glory or re-incarnation. I think the world is so screwed up cause people don’t take it as reality, its not “ all there is” its not the end all be all. It would be nice if there was a heaven to go to at the end of it all, but as an adult I have responsibilities to myself first of, and even to a society that mostly is blinded by religion and some sort of new age mysticism. I am a cursed man though for I am a mystic that knows there is no mysticism, so I guess poet would be a better world. For a normal person says “ a rose” a poet says “a rose that glows and reflects with the sunlight and moist from the morning dew, she holds it in her aged hands and takes in the divine fragrance from the gods themselves”